I wonder what I'm doing on this planet
I'm having another one of those, what the fuck? weeks. no. months.
this blog - communication with the living - seems like a potentially bad idea. when i first created it i wanted a place to put my thoughts because throughout the course of a given day, so many people share theirs with me. this blog was going to be somewhere i could digest in a broad way, just to think about people and think about how thinking about so many people would change me.
i also wanted a place where i could spend time thinking about myself. throughout my years of being a quasi-public figure in a very small local scene, i've always made that process partially public. reason number one is that i have always had my provocative side. but another big part of me has always wanted to challenge the notion that average human beings need to struggle with existential questions in isolation or in the confines of a drunk or stoned conversation with another drunk or stoned person. i like to take "i wonder what i'm doing on this planet" out for a walk, quite often.
but in all honesty, anyone who needs to deal with me in any professional sort of capacity shouldn't really know how i feel about any of this crap. if they do then there's a chance they'll care about my feelings and they seriously just shouldn't. if they come to me it's got to be all about them or else it's counter-productive. yet now i realize that they probably could or perhaps do come here and other places and get exactly that sort of information - the 'how i feel' information. i was a musician, so i wanted another public place to be, and silly me, i simply didn't think of all the reasons why i shouldn't given my occupation.
so see ya. if i come back, you'll know a career change happened. and that's an entirely likely possibility at this point.
this blog - communication with the living - seems like a potentially bad idea. when i first created it i wanted a place to put my thoughts because throughout the course of a given day, so many people share theirs with me. this blog was going to be somewhere i could digest in a broad way, just to think about people and think about how thinking about so many people would change me.
i also wanted a place where i could spend time thinking about myself. throughout my years of being a quasi-public figure in a very small local scene, i've always made that process partially public. reason number one is that i have always had my provocative side. but another big part of me has always wanted to challenge the notion that average human beings need to struggle with existential questions in isolation or in the confines of a drunk or stoned conversation with another drunk or stoned person. i like to take "i wonder what i'm doing on this planet" out for a walk, quite often.
but in all honesty, anyone who needs to deal with me in any professional sort of capacity shouldn't really know how i feel about any of this crap. if they do then there's a chance they'll care about my feelings and they seriously just shouldn't. if they come to me it's got to be all about them or else it's counter-productive. yet now i realize that they probably could or perhaps do come here and other places and get exactly that sort of information - the 'how i feel' information. i was a musician, so i wanted another public place to be, and silly me, i simply didn't think of all the reasons why i shouldn't given my occupation.
so see ya. if i come back, you'll know a career change happened. and that's an entirely likely possibility at this point.
